Thursday, October 27, 2011

Aeloist- a pompus windy bore who pretends to have inspiration

Autolatry- the worship of one’s self.

Okay now i really dont know what to talk about for this blog, my back and neck hurt and im starting to get a cramp in my left hand from typing. I need to go take a shower and catch up on a whole lot of reading. All i want to do is….go to sleep. As usual, nothing new there. I’m reallysttarting to want to go on a vvacation more and more every day and im starting to really consider going to egypt in december. I mean i was originaly supposed to go with my mom but she si kinda bailing on me, and everyone there is trying to get me married so i really don’t want to go without her. That’s one trip i definitely need my mommy for. She is the one who is telling everyone i want to get married which i dont, so everyone is so excited about finding me someone. So annoying, okay seriosuly i really have nothing else to write about, so hope this is long enough!
Here are my TWO vocab words;
Abacinate- to blind by putting a hot copper basin near someone’s eyes.

Abderian- given to incesstant or idiotic laughter

I truthfully have no motivation to write this blog right now, all i want to do is go to bed becuase surprise surprise…i’m exhausted. Working 12 hour days and then coming home to dance practice for my brothers wedding, and then having to do homework is insanity. I need a vacation, plus being a senior on top of all that, senioritis is starting to take place and i am very nervous. Where can i get myself some motivation? I would say im looking forward to the weekend, but really it’s going to be just as hectic and crazy or even more so than the weekdays. Tomorrow at my work is our halloween party. Now i have work at 6am, just imagine how much energy i’ll have to deal with 45 children under the age of 5 all sugared up running around like crazy looneys! I can’t wait! Hahah. Between that time i have a meeting to go to at a hotel for my firends bridal shower, which i have to run to and run back to work. Then after the insane day im goin got have at work tomorrow because i already know its going to literally be INSANE, i have to go with my sister in law to meet with her DJ to discuss her music for her bridal shower. Then i have to go with my friend to find shoes for the on of the bridal showers i am helping to throw for my friend Sarah who is getting married in egypt in december. Hopefully stores will still be open at that time. Saturday i have to be at my friends house at 8am to help set up for one of 2 bridal showers im throwing for my friend, then after that i have another party to go to at night. Sunday i have dance practice in hayward from 10 - 3pm which is going to be intense. Then i have to go shopping for the rest of the things i need for the bridal shower number 2. Somehow i need to catch up on all my work over the weekend as well, sounds like a ball of fun or what? Yay, im gonna go write another blog no wto make up for the one i forgot and didnt feel like doing last week.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Birthday..ughhh

Okay again before i forget, here’s my word of the week. The word is, widdershins, which is an adverb defined as : in a left-handed, wrong, or contrary direction : counterclockwise. Hmmm…interesting?

Okay, anyways now onto more about me and my exciting life. More anxiety, panic attacks, and stress is still an everyday occurance. At this point why am i not immune to it? Along with wedding planning, bridal showers, and more weddings, my birthday is on Sunday. I’m turning 20, and i am not very happy about this. I know everyone keeps saying im still young and i should be enjoying this time, but really it’s kind of scary. This is the decade im supposed to finish school, get married, start a career, and start having kids. AHHH! That just sounds like too much, and at this point, even though im only 20 my parents have started the pressure about me getting married soon. It’s so annoying to have to listen to them talk about potential husbands, but at the same time they have always told me to wait until i finish school. However i graduate in the summer, so then what? I am thinking of taking a year off to find work, but only because i have had absolutley NO time to study for the GRE’s and this will give me more time. I just hate deciding everything for the rest of my life. I feel so pressured, and it’s like theres no room for mistakes. Am i just overthinking this all a little too much?

I think a therapy session might be in need very soon. Another thing i need to vent about is the fact that i HATE planning stuff for my bdays because its just annoying. BUT, none of my other family or friends plan anything. I am always the one to plan their birthdays, weddings, bridal showers, baby showers, whatever. So even though i said i wanted to do something, but not have to plan… no one ended up planning anything. A little annoying? Yes. [I know you hate rhetorical questions, but it makes my rant look better, okay?]

Since i’m just venting here, i also hate the fact that i have work at 6 am M-F for the next three weeks. It’s only wednesday an im exhausted. I don’t know if ill be able to last much longer, here’s hoping!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

There’s just something about this weather...

Since i always forget about incorporating my word of the day, i’m going to start off with that. My word is, “coruscate”. The word is a verb which is defined as the following… "to give off or reflect light in bright beams or flashes” OR "to be brilliant or showy in technique or style”. I’ve never heard of the word, but it seems as though it could be a word that i would use in my everyday vocabulary.

I guess in today’s blog i’ll talk about the fact that i have so much work to do, yet again. I also can’t seem to find enough hours within the day to complete all that i have to. So i’m currently at Starbucks trying to study and get this in before i have to go to work in an hour. After i get off at 6, my sister in law is making me go with her to look at her wedding dress that just came in and then were all invited to go over to dinner at her dads house, which is in Fremont. We all have to go because he gets very offended when any of us don’t show up, even though he knows we all work and have busy schedules, and it’s especially hard to make it out during the week. So, i’m just going to have to sleep less and work more. Seems to be the motto to my life a this point in time. This past week i haven’t been able to go to sleep before 3am, because of all the work i have to get done. Then i have to wake up at 7am for school. Somehow i have been able to function, but as i may have stated before, i am the type of person to get stressed out about the smallest things so, being stressed along with no sleep, which leads to a lack of appetite, leads to a horrible immune system, and i end up continually getting sick. I haven’t gotten sick in a while, and i’m praying it lasts. I have started to get a little cough though, and i’m just hoping it doesn’t turn into anything worse. Even though i don’t get sick often, when i do, it is not pretty. I’ve gotten strep throat at least 3 times last year, and then i got bronchitis. Haven’t gotten sick badly this year, but the cold weather is just starting so i guess i shouldn’t speak too soon.

So anyways, i’m at starbucks trying to get some work done, which probably was not such a good idea. Everyone here just wants to talk and i don’t want to be rude, so i have to talk to all the employees because i come here on a daily basis and they all know me pretty well. Here’s all the stuff i was supposed to get done in the hour im going to be here. I’m supposed to complete this blog, write a one page proposal for my public policy class, respond to discussions for my online Communications class, study for a quiz in that class, and think more about my topic for our 100W class. I’ve been here for about half an hour, and i’m just finishing my blog. I would say i haven’t been all that productive.

I really don’t want to go to work in a while either. We are still in the process of hiring new teachers, and really the people that have come in so far are horrible and could never be trusted to work with children. The people that have came in are either too old with no energy, to prissy to be able to work with kids because they don’t want to get bugers on them. It’s been pretty hard to look for people but there is one lady that could possibly be our new teacher. She’s young and full of energy, but she still kind of a brat. Hopefully the attitude goes away, and she fits in to the little family we have created at our daycare. Okay, on to the next project.